You'll Be Alright Now, Sugar.

Hello there.

Heeeyy guys. It's been a long time. The busy period's almost over. And it's gonna be the YOG Break in a week! I'm pretty sure everyone's pretty much stoked about it. Well, not so much on the Youth Olympics but, it's the 3-week holiday that counts right?

First, I'd like to say, I'm sorry to the many groupmates I have disappointed for the past few projects. I know my work was probably not the best of standards. But I really tried. Y'know how I lose motivation easily. The workload was stacking and I guess you could say, sometimes I just wasn't thinking right.

But hey, Excuses are for Losers. So yea. Why don't I just screw myself. (Sorry guys)

OKaayyyy. Ever had the experience when you had a freaking tsunami of thoughts to pen down, but somehow, when you wanna start writing them, you just forget everything you had in your mind earlier?

Yea I'm kinda having that now.

Okay now. To all the sexy people out there, there's a DBA camp coming up, during October 14th - 15th? I think. YOU ALL SHOULD FREAKING JOIN IT. I'm serious. It's gonna be sooo much fun. Well, this only goes for DBA students of course. You can always check with me for updates.

Okay sexy people. Imma do my stuff. See ya around.

Oh oH! I know. HERE's a song. It's quite funny actually. And Meekakitty's in it! It's cute.

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In Coma.

Hello there.

"I'm still stitching up the stabs you left
Weaving in and out slowly
I grow accustomed to the piercing flesh
And find in evil in the holy

And still, I see the line
Between the stars, your scars and mine
And as this coarse thread pulls
I feel the veins of the frozen

Stay in coma, It's the only defense we have left

A bad decision leaves me open and
I'm left here shuttered for days
If I could replay the words we said
I'd see you all amazed

And still it's not enough
Save yourself and demonize us
And as your curtain draws
You see the tears of the fallen

Stay in coma, It's the only defense we have left

I'm not taking the fall for a spineless puppet
You play quiet and I won't fight it

Stay in coma, it's the only defense we have left
We have left."

Hey guys, it's been a long time. Ever heard a song and felt that a few sentences really reached out to you? Yea. I could totally relate to this one.

This is "In Coma" by Dead Poetic. The band's on hiatus and will continue to be, I guess. I have to thank Santhosh for introducing them to me 2 years back.

Here's the link to the acoustic version of the song. I think most of you guys will prefer that.

Sometimes, we get hurt and we want an escape. One to block you out from everything. From misery. Sometimes, we get hurt so much, we feel numb to every other pain. Sometimes, we let the world pass us and we'll watch. Sometimes, we wait.

I won't fight it. Not anymore.

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Am I Happy? Are You Happy?

Hello there.



Do as I say.

Look at yourself in the mirror. Stare into your eyes. Leave everything else behind.

What do you see? Are you happy?

Who are you?

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Was It A Dream?

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"Your defense is where I'll hide
Your walls built deep inside
Yea, I'm a selfish bastard
But at least I'm not alone

My intentions never change
What I want still stays the same
And I know what I should do
It's time to set myself on fire

Was it a dream?
Was it a dream?
Is this the only evidence that proves
A photograph of you and I

Your reflection I've erased
Like a thousand burned out days
Believe me when I say goodbye forever
Is for good

Was it a dream?
Was it a dream?
Is this the only evidence that proves
A photograph of you and I"

Hey guys. That's a song by 30 Seconds to Mars. It's called "Was It A Dream?" (Duh..) If you haven't heard it, go give it a listen. Some of you may like it, and some may not. If you like it, you've got yourself a new awesome song/band to listen to. If you don't like it, thennn. Listen to it until you like it. Justtt kidding.

I've learnt about this song from Clemence. He said it was his favourite 30stm's song. So yea, I really got hooked.

I typed out the lyrics. Like word for word. I usually do that. I like doing that in fact. I can do that for hours. Okayy.. Maybe not hours. Yea, but you get it. I guess it's because it makes up for my inability to sing? (seriously.) So... Am I the only one with this habit? Haha.

So, what I'm guessing is, it's about a relationship which has ended. Y'know, it's sad when a relationship ends. (Duh..) But I'm sure it'll get a lot better over time. Yea sure, you'll feel depressed and stuff, but don't let it overwhelm you. Because once you start to pick yourself up, you'll keep going. And that's usually the part of your life, where you grow.

It's just like your immune system. When you get sick, you feel shitty, but once you recover, your immune system grows a loootttt stronger. Then the same virus, won't be able to harm you again.

I know it's a really geeky analogy. And I know I probably suck at consoling people. (Don't judge me, assholes.) Yea. But I hope it helps.

Soooo, I guess I went back on my words. The previous post wasn't the last. (Oh! It's 3.33 am. Does making a wish now work?) Yea, so.... yea. I'll keep postin' I guess? Thanks to the guys who've been encouraging me. Really really appreciate it.

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The Things We Believe.

Hello there.

Hey guys, I have to warn you. It'll be quite a long post. So, if you're not interested. You can close this after reading half of it or whenever you want to.

You guys have to know that I have been staring at the same page on my computer screen for 2 hours. No, it wasn't porn. Yes, I was stoning. As I said, I usually think/reflect. Whatever you wanna call it.


If I had to picture what my life is like, it's probably like that photo up there. Empty. With crossroads. Don't deny it, because I know many of you feel like this at times too. Y'know, when shit happens. And then there's no one there to help you.

Why? Because there are times where you have to make your own decisions. Make your own stand. Let go of the people who have been leading you since, whenever they started to.

I know a lot of decisions made were bad ones, trust me, because no one has made "stupider" mistakes than I have. If you say, "shit happens". Then it's perpetually raining shit in my life.

The worst part is? You never ever find people you can trust your secrets with. Because you never know when they're gonna freaking stab you in the back. And nope, not even your family. Not ANYONE. Who're you gonna rely on? That's right...


Yourself. Reality has just slapped you in the face. Again. Then you ask, "but i have friends?" Well yea, but sorry darling, friends don't last forever. Seriously.

I've thought so much about the existence of this blog. It's like I'm not even carrying out its purpose. And so much for all the formspring shit. It's like I'm taking the wrong direction already. People have told me about this also, and yea, i agree. This whole thing's changing me. I don't even know if it's for the better or worse. I don't even know if I actually want to continue this, because I'm not sure if I'm happy. And then people are gonna start asking, "Jiawei, what's up with this? Are you okay? Do you want to talk about it? Blah blah blah."

Now ask yourself. Do these people actually mean it? Or do they wanna find out what's going on for the sake of gossips/ being nosy etc.

OR do they actually want to be your friend. REAL friend?

Ahhh.. Y'know what. Let's just leave it as it is. For now.

Anyway, formspring questions:

I mean. Come on............ For the 523485th time already. If this is about Sop. Then No!??!!? Dude.. I've already said it soo many times. Sop and I are good friends and we're better off as that? Anyway.. I'd probably only be jealous because he plays the guitar a lot better than I do. I think.


Yes. I have. I've thought about it a lot. These thoughts don't usually end up happy. Why? Because I don't wanna get married if I think I'm not able to provide for my girlfriend. Then the girlfriend's better off with another guy.


This is actually quite a good question. Thanks for asking this. I have to re-think my plans again. Since y'know, people usually diss my ideas. yes, But i want to travel, backpack and study animals. And make a living out of it, just enough for myself. And possibly another person.


Badly.

That's all guys. This may actually be my last post here. My friend told me, "I think you were better off without the blog." I didn't know what to say. He may be right. Really.

I'm not gonna bother publicizing my post this time. It just goes out to my faithful readers who actually bother reading nonsense I've been typing. Thanks. I appreciate it.

"All these things I hate revolve around me." i finally see it now.

No Easy Way Out

Hello there.

Waaazzuppp guys. I was about to go off to sleep. When I decided to check my formspring, (although i thought it was dead, apparently it isn't!) and I found some questions/comments!!!So, I got very excited. And I've decided to answer them NOW.

Sooo, I found my very first HATER! YESSSSSSSSSSSSss. When I first started out my blog, I promised myself that if i ever get a hater one day, I'll reserve a blogpost for him/her. I know it's really weird because people usually ignore haters. But I think they should be given a chance, y'know. To explain.

So hereeee goes.
And that's not all....


I may be wrong, but, it may have been the same person? I mean, look at the timings, 34/33 minutes ago. Then, came the fatality.

Woah, shit. Seriously? Also 33 minutes ago. And all of a sudden, I'm a jerk now.

Look, Hater No. 1, I don't know if all these comments were from you. But, what's up with the contradicting statements?

Okay, but there must be a reason for the hating. Well, you can always tell me why you want me to die. And you should explain it well. Avoid giving the usual answers like, "because you're such a M*****F***ing b*t**, I would totally pwn your assh*** and shove sticks down your *****"

Okay? I mean, I would seriously love to hear what I need to change. Be it, my character, my hair, my tight pants... Whatever. Just tell me first, and then you can continue hating me. Okay? (: No hard feelings, I promise.

Anywayyyyyy, there were more questions like.


Well, ideal girl as in.. Girlfriend material? I guess, she doesn't have to be pretty (my friends know this best), as long as I like her and she appreciates me (and likes me too, obviously), then yea, that's all I'm looking for. Yay!

And then, yes I think I'm soft-hearted. Very, in fact. Unless it's a special circumstance. Then I'll be cold and angry like Hater No. 1. Yea, But it mostly depends on the situation.

Okay guys, that's all for today. Hater No. 1. Don't forget to leave me a response. (Or if the comments were from others, then i apologize, But..) I'll be waiting. I mean, the rest of you guys can to do it too!

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When I See Your Face, My Heart Bursts Into Fire

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"Capricorns are loners but they also need to feel appreciated, but they're excellent at hiding this truth. ... (capricorns) are very self contained and they have many faces to present to the world, they are known as aloof and indifferent but this is them concealing themselves from the world, unfortunately, they may never know who they really are. This causes feelings of insecurity and causes them to question their own self worth. Capricorns make it difficult to get close emotionally because once they let someone in, they do not want to let them go and emotional connections make them vulnerable yet satisfied at the same time. This is an ongoing internal conflict of contradications inside the Capricorn's mind."

I think that pretty much summarizes what I've wanted to say.

So in case you guys haven't noticed by now, I'm a CAPRICORN. I have friends out there who are Capricorns too! (Marcel and Sop!) Anyway, I think Horoscopes can be quite accurate at times, but sometimes they don't work for me. At all!

Here's the link if you wanna read more about your horoscope, or your friends', or your pet's.


-------> HEREEEE

I wonder if horoscopes work for animals... Because it's weird, if your dog's a Capricorn.. He'd be a Dog-Goat-Fish.

RARRRRRRRRRR. Okay, not funny...

Anyway, here's a quick shout-out to Yejing, because she asked me to read the horoscope thing. Thaanks!

So, what's your horoscope? And do you think horoscopes work for you?

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