The Things We Believe.

Hello there.

Hey guys, I have to warn you. It'll be quite a long post. So, if you're not interested. You can close this after reading half of it or whenever you want to.

You guys have to know that I have been staring at the same page on my computer screen for 2 hours. No, it wasn't porn. Yes, I was stoning. As I said, I usually think/reflect. Whatever you wanna call it.


If I had to picture what my life is like, it's probably like that photo up there. Empty. With crossroads. Don't deny it, because I know many of you feel like this at times too. Y'know, when shit happens. And then there's no one there to help you.

Why? Because there are times where you have to make your own decisions. Make your own stand. Let go of the people who have been leading you since, whenever they started to.

I know a lot of decisions made were bad ones, trust me, because no one has made "stupider" mistakes than I have. If you say, "shit happens". Then it's perpetually raining shit in my life.

The worst part is? You never ever find people you can trust your secrets with. Because you never know when they're gonna freaking stab you in the back. And nope, not even your family. Not ANYONE. Who're you gonna rely on? That's right...


Yourself. Reality has just slapped you in the face. Again. Then you ask, "but i have friends?" Well yea, but sorry darling, friends don't last forever. Seriously.

I've thought so much about the existence of this blog. It's like I'm not even carrying out its purpose. And so much for all the formspring shit. It's like I'm taking the wrong direction already. People have told me about this also, and yea, i agree. This whole thing's changing me. I don't even know if it's for the better or worse. I don't even know if I actually want to continue this, because I'm not sure if I'm happy. And then people are gonna start asking, "Jiawei, what's up with this? Are you okay? Do you want to talk about it? Blah blah blah."

Now ask yourself. Do these people actually mean it? Or do they wanna find out what's going on for the sake of gossips/ being nosy etc.

OR do they actually want to be your friend. REAL friend?

Ahhh.. Y'know what. Let's just leave it as it is. For now.

Anyway, formspring questions:

I mean. Come on............ For the 523485th time already. If this is about Sop. Then No!??!!? Dude.. I've already said it soo many times. Sop and I are good friends and we're better off as that? Anyway.. I'd probably only be jealous because he plays the guitar a lot better than I do. I think.


Yes. I have. I've thought about it a lot. These thoughts don't usually end up happy. Why? Because I don't wanna get married if I think I'm not able to provide for my girlfriend. Then the girlfriend's better off with another guy.


This is actually quite a good question. Thanks for asking this. I have to re-think my plans again. Since y'know, people usually diss my ideas. yes, But i want to travel, backpack and study animals. And make a living out of it, just enough for myself. And possibly another person.


Badly.

That's all guys. This may actually be my last post here. My friend told me, "I think you were better off without the blog." I didn't know what to say. He may be right. Really.

I'm not gonna bother publicizing my post this time. It just goes out to my faithful readers who actually bother reading nonsense I've been typing. Thanks. I appreciate it.

"All these things I hate revolve around me." i finally see it now.

No Easy Way Out

Hello there.

Waaazzuppp guys. I was about to go off to sleep. When I decided to check my formspring, (although i thought it was dead, apparently it isn't!) and I found some questions/comments!!!So, I got very excited. And I've decided to answer them NOW.

Sooo, I found my very first HATER! YESSSSSSSSSSSSss. When I first started out my blog, I promised myself that if i ever get a hater one day, I'll reserve a blogpost for him/her. I know it's really weird because people usually ignore haters. But I think they should be given a chance, y'know. To explain.

So hereeee goes.
And that's not all....


I may be wrong, but, it may have been the same person? I mean, look at the timings, 34/33 minutes ago. Then, came the fatality.

Woah, shit. Seriously? Also 33 minutes ago. And all of a sudden, I'm a jerk now.

Look, Hater No. 1, I don't know if all these comments were from you. But, what's up with the contradicting statements?

Okay, but there must be a reason for the hating. Well, you can always tell me why you want me to die. And you should explain it well. Avoid giving the usual answers like, "because you're such a M*****F***ing b*t**, I would totally pwn your assh*** and shove sticks down your *****"

Okay? I mean, I would seriously love to hear what I need to change. Be it, my character, my hair, my tight pants... Whatever. Just tell me first, and then you can continue hating me. Okay? (: No hard feelings, I promise.

Anywayyyyyy, there were more questions like.


Well, ideal girl as in.. Girlfriend material? I guess, she doesn't have to be pretty (my friends know this best), as long as I like her and she appreciates me (and likes me too, obviously), then yea, that's all I'm looking for. Yay!

And then, yes I think I'm soft-hearted. Very, in fact. Unless it's a special circumstance. Then I'll be cold and angry like Hater No. 1. Yea, But it mostly depends on the situation.

Okay guys, that's all for today. Hater No. 1. Don't forget to leave me a response. (Or if the comments were from others, then i apologize, But..) I'll be waiting. I mean, the rest of you guys can to do it too!

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When I See Your Face, My Heart Bursts Into Fire

Hello there.

"Capricorns are loners but they also need to feel appreciated, but they're excellent at hiding this truth. ... (capricorns) are very self contained and they have many faces to present to the world, they are known as aloof and indifferent but this is them concealing themselves from the world, unfortunately, they may never know who they really are. This causes feelings of insecurity and causes them to question their own self worth. Capricorns make it difficult to get close emotionally because once they let someone in, they do not want to let them go and emotional connections make them vulnerable yet satisfied at the same time. This is an ongoing internal conflict of contradications inside the Capricorn's mind."

I think that pretty much summarizes what I've wanted to say.

So in case you guys haven't noticed by now, I'm a CAPRICORN. I have friends out there who are Capricorns too! (Marcel and Sop!) Anyway, I think Horoscopes can be quite accurate at times, but sometimes they don't work for me. At all!

Here's the link if you wanna read more about your horoscope, or your friends', or your pet's.


-------> HEREEEE

I wonder if horoscopes work for animals... Because it's weird, if your dog's a Capricorn.. He'd be a Dog-Goat-Fish.

RARRRRRRRRRR. Okay, not funny...

Anyway, here's a quick shout-out to Yejing, because she asked me to read the horoscope thing. Thaanks!

So, what's your horoscope? And do you think horoscopes work for you?

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Just Sleep.

Hello there.

I bought some clothes today! I always buy stuff on impulse. But it's okay. I wear them anyway. The YES event thing on Friday wasn't that bad. The sec school kids I got were awesome. I mean, I'm not a paedophile or anything. They were just cute and hyper, so I got slightly hyper also. I decided to keep in contact with them (although I know it may not be for long), that's why you see a lot of people adding me on Facebook.

Speaking of paedophilia. I watched "A Nightmare on Elm Street". I thought it was just okay.............................. Since i'm not a fan of thrillers and shit. I like happy movies. The concept was there, but I don't know, I guess it wasn't sustainable for a 90-minute movie. Plus, they remade the film like idk.. 10 times or something.

Spoiler alert! Okay if you still intend to watch the movie, just skip to the next paragraph. The movie was just about a man touching kids, and getting killed for it. And when he dies, he comes back in their dreams to touch them again... Well, In a different way.


So it's just lots of violence, loud sound effects and the "scare-you-so-that-you-jump-from-your-seat-and-hear-people-scream" scenes.

Andddddd, to the stranger who asked me to watch Wicker Park. I can't find it... But, I'm gonna keep looking out for it.

I EAT VESPAS FOR BREAKFAST. And I want to sleep. See you guys around soon. In the mean time...


Sweet dreams... Okay don't get too freaked out. Haha. I was just kidding. I mean, i wasn't kidding about the sweet dreams part. But the picture. Ahh, you guys know what I mean. Don't blame me if you get nightmares!

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Dude, I Totally Miss You

Hello there.

MSTs are over! Haha, it actually ended on Monday. But, school sucks. Whoever thinks having one paper only for MSTs is a good thing should shoot themselves now. It is great news.. ONLY if we didn't have more projects to do during the holidays. As Chee Wei said, "Having one paper less more MSTs means having one more project to do."

On a happier note, I saw the happy DBF girls again today. Which made me slightly happier. Being happy is infectious. And i'm going to school again tmr, so i hope i see them there again.

Okay, ranting stops here.

Now, i've received feedback from some people. They said my blog posts were too long.... Haha. I know it can be boring sometimes. But, I don't know. For me, i feel that the longer i type, there's more commitment and attachment to this blog. Also, it's because this blog's also for myself (yes, i read my own posts once in a while). Yea. So the more i type, the more of myself i will remember in the future. If you get what i mean. Since you know, i might change again.

So yea. But i'll try to shorten my posts. TRY TO. Lulzzz.

Anyway, I was watching some youtube vid (like some comedy/song kinda thing) and i realized, how what it said, was true. I mean I seriously never noticed it. EVER.

What is it, you ask? "Cool Guys Don't Look At Explosions" !!! I mean..


Wolverine doesn't.

Iron Man doesn't...


Even freaking power rangers don't! Wow. But seriously, I have NEVER noticed it. After so many years of watching action movies. I mean, it's such an act-cool action. But it's funny.

If you wanna hear the song, Here's the link.

So guys, now you know what you have to do to look cool. Set off a mini explosion, and walk away from it, with the wind blowing in your hair and shit. Haha................ K. Just kidding. Yea. I know i'm not that funny.

Check it out. I failed to shorten the post! But it's okay. The next post will be shorter. I hope.
(Maybe it's just because my font's big!)

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We Are Caught In This Game.

Hello there.

Recently, I've been seeing these girls around in school. They're year 2s and from the DBF course i think. The funny thing is, they always seem to be happy. Like laughing and idk.. Very hyper. Which is not a bad thing. Haha.

Some of you may already disagree with me, but guys, seriously, you have to admit they're cute. Anyway, what baffles me is, how can they be so happy when MSTs are approaching??? Like wow, i bet all of us wish we could laugh like them during this period. Yea. But it's getting intense eh?


Check out that intensity.

SOoo...


I know you are probably gonna ask, "Woah, jiawei, what the heck is that?" Yea, those are birds. Imagine the amount of bird-shit that flock could produce. I mean it could drown you or something. But yea, wow. I actually got this from a youtube video. And no, it's not a documentary. It's actually something someone asked me to watch/listen to.


Thank you, stranger, for sharing this. You guys should probably give it a listen. I felt that it was good. Honestly. Like, its the kind of music you would listen to, in rainy days, looking out of your window, staring. into. space. forever. Yea. It is, for me at least.

Broken Social Scene - Lover's Spit <---- LINK'S HERE

Okay..... I'm not so sure what the song is about, but i guess it's about lovers not knowing what love truly is. Like everything they're doing now, they think it's love. But it's not. And it takes A LOT more to love. Yea. Because part of the lyrics say, "You know it's time that we grow old and do some shit".

So yea. I suck at song interpretations. So if you know what the song means. You can always. Tell me. (: Go google the song lyrics, [Lover's Spit. By Broken Social Scene]

Anyway..... Okay, stranger, because you asked me to. I'm gonna watch Wicker Park. After my test on monday. You could always lend me the dvd or vcd or something if you have it. I wouldn't mind. Hahaha. Or i'll just borrow it from a cd shop or something.

Okay guys. I won't be blogging for the next few days i guess. You know, to study.. I guess i'll be back by Monday. Or Tuesday. Tomorrow's gonna be a loooong day. I'm off to organize my files and study now. Bye guys. See you around.


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To Live Is To Die.

Hello there.

Yes. I am cranky. And I've been acting weirdly. I have mood swings. And I'm still not out of this shithole. It's killing me.
SANTHOSH. I don't know if you're reading this. But thanks for hearing me out today. Now you know how such a minor thing can affect me. Eh? I haven't told anyone else about it.

And yes, minor things cause bigger problems. That's what I want to talk about today. The Butterfly Effect. (Not the trick i performed for Sylvia)

Some of you may have heard of it. Especially if you have watched "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button". What it means is basically just a ripple effect of how minute things can lead to disasters.

(Woah.. Cute. :) Hahahahahaha.................................. Holy shi-)

As they said, "The flap of a butterfly's wings in Singapore could cause a hurricane in Texas." I totally buy that theory.

Imagine this, you're chilling out at home in the morning. And then, holy shit, you're late for school. So you leave the house 2 seconds later than usual, and then... holy shit! you forgot your keys. So you go back into the house, grab your keys, run to your car. Not bad.. 20 seconds later than usual. Then you start driving normally, and you see some birds flying across your car. o you slowed down for 3 seconds. And then, HOLY SHI- a person jumps out from the road. And BAM!



Congratulations, asshole. You've successfully murdered a kid just because you were being a lazy ass in the morning and you were later than usual by 25 seconds. That kid didn't have to die if,

1. You weren't chilling out that much

2. You remembered your keys

3. If you were slightly fitter and ran to your car in less than 20 secs.

4. If you killed the birds instead.

1 second may seem like a short period of time. But not in this circumstance. Where it could save a life (Or save your ass from jail).

Now, I'm not sure if i'm getting the point across. But this is pretty much applicable to everything we do. A text to your crush could destroy or build your future. A pen which ran out of ink during your exam could potentially rape your entire life too.

It's all these small stuff that snowballs... And hits you in the face. So, whatever you guys wanna do, just be sure you're aware of ALL of the possible consequences . And when you've already done something, just live in the moment. Because you don't know what's gonna happen next.

And i don't know what i'm talking about too. So I'll just let you guys think about it. [Maybe at this point, after you read this post. You realize you're doing something wrongly in your life. That change could affect whatever you're gonna do, which is going to affect you for the rest of your life. Get it now? .... you still don't? Forget it.]

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We're All Just Living in the Moment.

Hello there.

FINALLY.. I'm back. Hi guys. It's been a long time. The week's been ridiculously busy. With tests and projects and more tests piled up.

I mean honestly, I was so caught up with all the shit I wanted to do. I barely even took time to think and "stone" like i usually did. Which made me really really angry. Like hulk-angry.
Which resulted in this:



So people have been asking me, why i've been so moody these past days. And... I really really don't know how to explain it. But i've been really affected by reactions by certain people. yeap. And i guess, i'm pretty much an asshole, because i tend to affect the people around me with my unhappy-aura. That is, of course, when i'm unhappy.

Well, i guess it's more or less over now. Thanks to people like Nick! Whom I believe, is one of the few loyal readers of this blog.


I mean, he seriously replies my questions. So i really really appreciate it. And of course, I want to thank my CLASSMATES.


Because, 70% of the questions in my formspring are probably asked by them. AND also they are awesome listeners. So.... You guys ARE my friends. Don't worry too much about what i say, about me having only a few close friends. I mean, i treat most of my friends equally nice. So thanks for listening to my ranting and shit during breaks.

Also, there are a lot more people that made me happier. Like my family and other friends. So you guys know who you are. (I hope?) If i listed all your names down, blogspot will crash.

And omg, i was looking through my facebook pictures/videos again... Yea i had quite a lot of fun over these years. AND i re-watched the Butterfly Effect trick i performed for Sylvia in the class chalet. (Hahaha! Sylvia, seriously, i have no idea why you actually believed me?) Eh class, we should have a chalet soon? Haha.

Right..... I actually have a lot of things to talk about. But seeing that this post is getting a lot longer than expected. I may actually blog about it next time.

Now I know a lot of people are feeling very stressed now, be it over projects or tests or whatever. I just really want to tell you guys, i may not know how it feels. But i just hope you guys can be happier. because, we're all gonna die in 2012.



Like that. Nah just kidding. But seriously, sometimes all we have to do is slow down. And not think too much.

So take the classic chill pill. And just stay happy.

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