Do You Really Want Me?

Hello there,

"Nobody understands me. NOBODY."

Sounds familiar? Yea, no shit. That's probably what you're thinking RIGHT NOW. Hi guys, sorry for the abrupt start. Couldn't help but write a "hook" introduction, well, since that's what secondary school teachers taught us when it comes to writing essays.

So let's get into the topic righhhht away. ----> "Teen Angst"

What's teen angst? It is something that messes up your (provided you're still a teen) mind, it's something that... makes you think a lot deeper into stuff, it's kinda what made "Inception" so much more brilliant. (well.. kinda.) And when you think you're the only one in the world going through all the shit you're in right now.

In simpler terms, it's just a right to get depressed/angry at something. Whattt? I didn't say anything wrong right? Don't get all upset now.. I'm just sayin'.

Don't get it? Okay. What happens when I show you guys a picture like this:

"Moooo~"

Now, these 2 cows could possibly lead a teenager into a chain of thoughts. Like this.

"Okay, let's see, death, global warming, sadness, love, rich-fat-dudes getting laid, gay men.. Wait. What?"

Totally random stuff. And very very complicated. (In your own way) Okay I don't know what kind of other weird thoughts you guys have in your heads. But yea, you can try saying, "Noooo, that's not what I'm thinking you bitch. You don't get me."

Well, yea, I'm not saying I can totally read your mind, but just understand that there are probably 10 million other kids around thinking like you. Not having the exact same thoughts, but yea, they are pretty much feeling alone too. Why? Because we are not you.

It's no wonder why we want to remain as kids, caz when we show them the same damn 2-cows-picture, this is what we get back from them.

"Mooooooo~"

The same thing, which is really just, 2 cows. (Okay maybe with some extra unicorns/power rangers/candies in the background) Yea, you get the drift. Sometimes, our minds are just messin' with us. There actually isn't too much to think about for now, or maybe forever.

Maybe sometimes, we just don't want people to understand us. But that's just fine the way it is.

So I guess this is the end of my "essay", plus a super sexy quote (one of my favourites) as all teachers would recommend us to do,

"The most merciful thing in the world, I think, is the inability of the human mind to correlate all its contents." (H.P. Lovecraft)

I think that's pretty much it. Don't worry too much about anything. Think of us as lucky people. If we get affected by these little things, imagine what will happen if all the bigger problems in the universe gets thrown at us. I wouldn't be able to take it. Simple people should stay simple.

Soooo, peace guys. It'll get better. And if you're not a teen, and you're reading this, congratulations on surviving your teenage life. You should know how shitty it felt like. So guys, tell me, what's in your head right now?

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Attention, attention!

Hello there.

Hi guys. Did you miss me? I guess not. Weellllzzz, I'm back, likeee.... Finally after 2 or 3 weeks? I don't know. Exams are finally over (WWOOOO!!! Late celebration, but still.) And yea, guess where I've been?

No I'm not in the picture.

That's righhhhttt, it's mother-freaking Sydney. (Love the blackberry's camera btw.) So yeaaappp, I have a lot of photos of it actually, but I'm too lazy to upload them. So yea. Nothing really special there I guess, except the animals, and the weather and the tourist attractions and the hot white-people. (That's pretty much everything eh?) Butttt, yea I really really like the weather there. It's like Spring now or something.

So, although it's been quite some time since I've had long flippy/silky hair, people have been asking me, "Why do you like having your long hair?" Questions like these were asked so many times, if I had to count them, I'd rather eat my own dung. Then again, a few of the replies I'd give are, "Becaz it's freaking cool!" or "because I'll look like friggin' rockstar!". Or maybe the most common one, "Because the chicks dig it."

Come on guys, I know I probably look hideous/broke-back with it, I mean, I can tell. (But I still like it.)

Ewwww, Gay Fag is Gay.

Imma lay it all out today. It's all about attention-seeking and being different.

Before I make myself sound like some kind of desperado, or some act cool wannabe h0m1ez from da h00dz, what I'm trying to say is. I was just trying to find some kind of identity. Because I want to be recognized. Because I HATE being a nobody.

Oh, you can go ahead and start flaming, "Oh jiawei, you're such a disappointment. Why are you living your life for others?.." Well, the truth stings. Let's face it, everyone NEEDS attention. It's just the amount of attention you want, and the people whom you want it from.

Well, I guess I'm just one of the unfortunate ones who need/want more attention. After all, that's all part of growing up. It's just how we want to define ourselves. That's why everybody wants to be different. That's why, I'd rather go out and have people laugh behind my back, "Omg, look that long hair dude's a freaking weirdo".

But the one thing I've missed out is that, being different is not that different? In the end, we're still constantly looking for people who are "different" to mimic. Just to declare ourselves as unique individuals.

I don't really know what point I'm trying to make. I'm just saying that, I just want my own identity. I guess that's what most people spend their lives trying to do. I get a lot of "just be yourself" or "live your own life"-s. In fact, I do give people such advice. But, I guess it's not even easy to "be yourself". I don't even know how to be myself, especially since we've been influenced by so many things already.

Y'know what I'm sayin'? No? It's kay, I don't expect anyone to. Okayyy, I'm gonna count sheeps. See you guys soon. Peaceeee.

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This Isn't the End.

Hello there.

Sorry to disappoint the haters, but, I'm not dead yet. Sooooo, I haven't been posting stuff for quite some time. It's caz, THE EXAMS ARE HERE AGAIN. So it's gonna be a busy ass period ( :( Sorry). Soooo, I just wanted to say, I'm gonna try to blog if I find the time to! And after this whoolllleee exams thing. There's gonna be a lot more time.

Here's a song for you guys. It's "This Isn't the End" by A Skylit Drive. They're one of my favourite bands since like, 2-3 years back. Or something. The link's already up theerrreee. So go check it out if you like rock/alternative stuff. :) It's like one of their older songs, but, it applies to most of us, since I'm sure many of us have contemplated suicide for certain reasons. (No, not because I look gay.)

And so. It's not the friggin' end yet man.

"Starting off to face the day
Seconds away from a life with endless...
Torment my mind with the thoughts of a beginning
To show you just what I feel
To decipher what is real

There's just so much to be said
So much is running through my head
In a time staggered on the end
Maybe now can we pretend?

For a second I felt so brave
Flowing through fault lines
Wearing on my mind
Weathering
Pulsating
Technicalities set you off the stage and when you see me now and then
There will be no exchange of hands
Scratch the plans

There's just so much to be said
So much is running through my head
In a time staggered on the end
Maybe now can we pretend?

This isn't the end"

So that's it for now. Since most of us are pretty STRESSED out. Yeaaappooz. OH. Hold on, my sis has a newwww blogggg. I guess she wants to pen down some really deep thoughts. Which is the exact opposite of what I do. No she's not emo. I've probably added the link somewhere at the sidebar already. SISTER'S BLOG. And her Formspring too. See you guys soonz.

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